It was so hard to go on, but with four children I had to keep going. In My Numbness I allowed my Brother-in-law Paul and Uncle John White to decide we should stay on the farm and get along as best we could, with help from Earl's Uncle Walter White. Uncle Mel would have helped too, but what I didn't know was, he talked to Uncle Oscar and he refused Uncle Mel on several things which, had I known, would have been of Great help to me.
Uncle Oscar said "Otis has enough schooling; he can stay home and run the farm for you." Otis was just finishing eighth grade. I said "Otis is going on to school if it takes the farm." That fall Otis started to High School. Neural was a junior. She had stayed with Grandpa and Grandma Young her first two years. That first summer she worked for Abbie Bare and she helped Neural with Clothes for School.
As My father long ago built a drag and dragged roads, Otis was able to drag roads that first summer and earn Money for Clothes and school books. When School started Otis and Neural got rides with other young people of the Neighborhood, so they would be at home with the twins and I at night and do the chores.
I had used Earl's life Insurance to pay off loan on the place and pay for his hospital and Funeral Services. Too bad I didn't have Paul and Mother Teets bring him back to Green Mountain Cemetery. I did get a Clark Grave Vault expecting to Move him later whenever we could go back to Colorado.
The insurance Earl had dropped two years before would have paid me $25.00 a month until the Children were all eighteen, and with the twins only 2½ years old when Earl died it would have Meant so much to me.